twenty two

 

I haven't felt whole, without you in my life. You're the one  that makes me wake up in the morning, 

and the one that keeps me up at night.   ♥

twenty one.

picking up the pieces of my life; shattered.

Out of all the things that we said and done, the one thing that I wish the most was to have your friendship.
I miss talking to you, because every time I try to talk to you now, you seem like you could care less, and I miss having someone to confide in with every shitty thing that has happened to me. You were my best friend, and I miss that the most.

twenty.

nineteen.

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.
- Courtney Kuchta -

Hello world, or who ever reads this blog, I thought that I would let you in on something new in my life;
All these feelings about feeling lost in my world, have changed.
I've found someone that makes all of the puzzle pieces come together, and in doing so has made my world a brighter place.
I'm so happy that I have someone that can make everything a lot better when I desperately need it to be,
and I'm glad that he is one thing that I can look forward to in my day; he makes my life a whole lot more exciting.
 

eighteen.

When life gives you lemons,

I haven't been on for a while, my life has been so stressful, and to top it all off, it's been a shitty ride.
I don't want to be used anymore, I am a human being with a brain and a heart, and it hurts,
when I am treated like shit.
So I've decided from this day forward to make sure that I'm treated better, and that I don't get hurt,
I'm going to start writing more, and keeping on track with keeping my blog going.
I'm not going to let things make me down, I only want positivity, even though sometimes that wont happen,
I understand. In any sense I want to be a happier person, the only way is not not let myself get involved in
shit, and not sweat the small stuff.

seventeen.

Experiences are memories.

Some are bad, some are good, but in the end you remember them all,

as a wise friend once said.

I try not to dwell in the past, I like living in the present,  and if things happen oh well I will get over them.

sixteen.

doing something that you feel right, shouldn't result in having you being called a name.

so I have figured that, since I only have two years left in highschool I should live it,
without being tied down to someone, or making that fateful judgement.
either staying with someone because I am selfish, or breaking up because it's better to experiance life.
now I'm not saying I'm not open to having a relationship. I just feel that it would be hard.
to open up, and let someone in, when in fact I only have fourteen months.
I think it would be easier to have flings, or short term relationships, without being so tied up.
tied up in the person, or the idea that the relationship would last longer than fourteen months.

I'm also not saying that I am not waiting for that one person. The one that makes me want to spend my life with them. when I am. I guess you can say that I am a hopeless romantic, but at the moment, I'm not that hopeless.